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Andrew Shutes-David's avatar

I found my way here from from Collabstack, and it's very interesting to jump into this story in media res, to not know what is subtext and what is mystery.

I don't know if it's just the plot that you've sketched out--a spouse dying of cancer, a possible infidelity--or something about the dialogue or my own sense of being pleasantly lost, but this reminds me a bit of Ti Amo by Hanne Ørstavik.

I really liked how you did the story within a story and how it's unclear at first whether her...interruptions will makes things more fraught or more collaborative and then how, I'm guessing, that tension somehow mirrors actual tensions between the two throughout the book.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Oh, Andrew, you capture what I was trying to do with exactitude and eloquence. Thank you so!

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Alisa Kennedy Jones's avatar

I am late to the party here as it's been a week! So much gorgeous intimacy and you tune the strings like a violin so adeptly--at once so taut--and then just enough give! Love it!

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Alisa, I'm late to see this terrific comment. "Tuning those strings" -- great line about the editing process that follows the invention. 💕

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Paolo Peralta's avatar

Lovely 🙌

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Ah, Paolo, How kind to offer such encouragement.

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William Colson's avatar

Brilliant, intriguing story I could not stop reading tonight. Inspiring writing.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Means much, Bill. Thank you for reading and commenting.

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Del's avatar

Oh, the regret of things unsaid. Or said so late. Time gone. The sadness of this picture you draw at her deathbed is heartbreaking.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

My heart broke when I wrote it, believe it or not...

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Susie Mawhinney's avatar

I cannot help but wonder of how Robert will be, in himself, when Lena dies?

And this

“No, I want you to finish it, but I’ll tell you this: She’s the sort of person who might say, ‘I have decided that when I die I want to be buried with my unread books—just in case.’ ”

“I don’t think she believes in ‘just in case."

Oh my heart Mary...

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Oh, your heart? Mine too. "Just in case"? Sorta with Hamlet on that one ... I do believe in the universe, if that means anything. Not sure about Lena, Bible scholar?

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Kimberly Warner's avatar

Gosh, there’s something really touching about this exchange. Maybe one of the most intimate ones they’ve had? Almost like telling this story together freed them up to be honest without being direct. I don’t know if Robert was imagining himself as Isaac, trying on this open “infatuation with Lena”, or if he was speaking from his own truth, maybe it doesn’t matter. But I sensed his longing to love Lena in his fullness.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Love in fullness, indeed, dear Kimberly.

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Jeffrey Streeter's avatar

"Once the action is taken, it becomes inseparable from the decision, the moment when one can still choose." Beautiful, Mary.

There's an echo for me here of:

"Between the idea

And the reality

Between the motion

And the act

Falls the Shadow"

And of course in the same poem, Eliot's 'The Hollow Men', come these lines:

"Those who have crossed

With direct eyes, to death’s other Kingdom

Remember us—if at all—not as lost

Violent souls, but only

As the hollow men "

Is this how Robert will remember Lena? And will her life end, "Not with a bang but a whimper"?

As ever, there's so much going on in your writing, Mary!

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

I think Jeffrey, that you know from the memoir how much I've read Eliot--and paid for permissions, too. But, truly though, I wasn't thinking of this poem. And I guess the question is what happens when Lena dies--to come... .

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Susan Campbell's avatar

Mary - you are a master at creating literary tension; I can feel the tightness in my heart just reading these words between Robert and Lena! I wasn't sure what he would say to her and vice versa when they finally saw each other again, but the idea of being buried with unread books "just in case" is both evocative and relatable. 🥰

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Ah, how kind of you. I was so shooting for tension and tenderness -- if I could pull it off.

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Susan Campbell's avatar

You definitely pulled it off.✨

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Russell C. Smith's avatar

“No, I want you to finish it, but I’ll tell you this: She’s the sort of person who might say, ‘I have decided that when I die I want to be buried with my unread books—just in case.’ ”

Mary, what a beautiful image, being buried with unread books.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Oh, so lovely of you, Russell.

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Mark Kolke's avatar

Your words are always great to read and twice as powerful to hear. I'm listening as the colour of the morning sky outside my window and a warm cup in my hands warm my wakening, the voice, yes, the voice, it's a second story. It's magic and pleasant and warm and comforting to the listener as it is respectful and caring from character to character.

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

Your words: So eloquently phrased. I am honored.

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